I'M TOO CHEAP TO BECOME A DRUG ADDICT - kenta maniwa

I was on Xanax, alone, watching Space Jam on my computer, when, towards the end of the movie, at 6:00AM, after my alarm clock made a noise, I realized the relationship between loneliness and independence. It was not an epiphany, not rock bottom, but something unexpected and clear, an experience that, like Michael Jordan's acting, was right because it was wrong. As I watched the sun crawl through the blinds, the crisp morning air pinning my skin, drying my cheeks, I felt a smile bleed across my face, stretching, gliding, maybe, away from apathy, sarcasm, and death, in the direction of something beautiful and vague, squishy – happy.
 


Kenta Maniwa
Fast Machine
Elizabeth Ellen